MAHB!!

Oh my life, oh my darling babies. It's mother's day and so much is going on in our life I could never get it all down. Today was an exceptional day. Exceptionally not great. Worst part was taking all four kids with me to the Children's Hospital because my darling seven year old baby badly sprained and possibly broke her ankle. I could go on and on abouts today, but what really matters is that I love my kids. I really do. I love them and they complete my life and totally blow my mind and they have changed me more than any thing else ever could. I thought of our lost baby today and how I wanted to love that little thing. I blow it daily with my kids. I mean I blow it!! I yell at them, ignore them, push them aside, whine at them and talk down to them. They are under my feet and in my way. They are snotty and poopy and dirty and gross. They are hungry and bored and messy. But oh my Heavenly Father they are so spectacular. I suppose that's the gift of motherhood. Such amazing love and so conflicting and so hard. I love you babies, I do. I love you and cherish you.

This post is entitled MAHB because that's what Selah calls me. I'm not sure why but I think it's because most of the time I am called MOM! by the others not Mommy or Mama. Sometimes it sounds more like BOB...we're working on it.